Going on Vacation

One day I would love to take my son to Florida so he can experience the magic that is Disney World! Some people may not like Disney World (they have no heart), but seriously, any vacation you take with a baby is going to be difficult! One has to be well prepared for any thing that can happen while you are away from home. So, if I were to go to Disney this would be on my list of things to bring.

  1. A suitcaseHaving a suitcase (or a duffle bag of some-sort) is the number one thing you need to have with you when traveling to anywhere. Without one, you would have nowhere to put your clothes, your toiletries etc. You can’t go on vacation without a change of clothes or your toothbrush. I mean, you can but I don’t think anyone would want to come near you after a couple of days of wearing the same clothes… Personally, I bought the American Tourister, the official luggage of Disney World.
  2. An emergency kit: An emergency kit contains everything that you would need in an emergency! These things include a thermometer, pain medicine, a medicine dispenser, nail clippers, bandaids etc. This is the kit we got at our baby shower.
  3. Toiletries: Like I was saying earlier, nobody is going to want to come near you if you don’t bring some soap, a toothbrush or toothpaste. Luckily, you can buy these things in travel sizes like this one, for you and your children.
  4. Sunscreen: Sunscreen is very important if you are fair skinned or prone to getting sunburns. It helps protect you and your baby’s delicate skin from the sun’s harmful rays. Going to Disney World requires being out in the sun most of the day, so this is a life saver.
  5. Stroller: After a while, carrying a 15 pound 5-month-old baby is going to get tiring, so a stroller is a must have item. It also doubles as a bag carrier for you and your baby’s stuff.
  6. Comfortable shoes: Make sure to buy comfortable shoes for walking long distances. You do not want to have blisters on your feet at the end of the day because of your poor choice in shoes (ouch).
  7. (Optional) Portable phone/camera charger: On your Disney trip you’re going to want to document all of life’s special moments. You’ll also want your phone charged in case you get separated from your group. Make sure you always have battery power with a portable charger! Otherwise, make sure to bring your regular charger and have your appliances charged the night before.






English and Spanish

Its been a couple of days since I have written anything, and I do not want to give up on writing. Life is always so crazy with a baby that I have not had the chance to sit down and write… During my time away from my blog, I began thinking about writing in spanish so the Hispanic side of my family can read about your life too.

 Translating my blog into spanish is going to be time consuming, but I will try it for a while and see how I like it. I might even have to write less or post two different blog posts. Hopefully everyone will enjoy it. 

Life

When your dad first told me that he was going to be leaving for two weeks of annual training I was worried. As the time for him to leave came closer, I grew more and more worried. After all, I am a first-time mom and I’ve never had to do this before. I’m used to being at home with you pretty much all day, but at the end of the work day your dad comes home and I’m no longer alone. I’ve never had to be without him for more than a couple of days tops, so this has been a change.

Thankfully, your grandparents, your aunt, and your uncle have come by many times to keep me company and I am grateful to them for that. I was especially thankful for their company when a major storm hit and caused a power outage. After a couple of days being alone, my mom came all the way from Georgia to visit for a bit. She was so excited to see you again and you seemed super excited as well. Sadly, on the night of her return, you were very colicky and you cried up a storm. It took us a while to get you to sleep and I was so saddened by your cries. I am so glad she was there with me when this happened because I would’ve cried along with you. On a happier note, you learned to roll from back to belly and since then you have been a little ball of energy.

Although I wasn’t completely alone, it was not the easiest experience and I give major props to all of the single moms out there. They are alone day in and day out and have to raise their child by themselves. Your dad was only going to be gone for two weeks and I did not know how I would do. I can’t imagine what it is like to be alone every single day. Of course, since he is in the Military, there may come a time when he will leave for much longer so I will have to accustom myself to this.

When you get married to someone you can only imagine what your life with them will be like, but you never truly know how life with them will play out. I knew it wouldn’t be the easiest life being married to a Soldier in the Army, but I was willing to take that chance with him. I can truly say that I am beyond happy to have married your dad and have taken that chance. Life is not always the easiest and it never will be, but I am okay with that. I am proud of him and how far we have come as a family.

 

Anxiety. Thoughts in my head.

People would always tell me don’t call sicknesses and illnesses upon yourself. Don’t own your disease don’t say you have this or have that because you always will. I don’t mean to call anxiety upon myself but it’s there. 

I’m constantly worrying about what everyone is thinking. Whenever I go out to eat to a restaurant or go anywhere I am always looking around seeing if anyone is judging me. It even happens when I take my little one out to our families house or when people come over. 

A constant worry, a constant fear. I feel that if I let people hold my child for too long they’re gonna think I dont take care of him. If I don’t let them hold him I’m scared they’re going to think I don’t like them or I’m annoying. 

It’s difficult living with this and it makes me sad at times. I can never be comfortable and that is why at times I just need to leave the place I’m at and take my little one with me. It doesn’t just happen with my child  though, it happens with everything I do.

When I’m home I don’t feel the judgments of other people whether they’re there or not. I can be myself with my husband, with my baby. I can melt down if I want to and I know he won’t judge me. I try to be okay though for my son. I have to be strong but sometimes it’s difficult and I just have to let it out. 

It’s tiring having to put on a happy face with everyone. At times its genuine and I can by myself and the thoughts of, “are they judging me?” “Am I doing something wrong?” “What can I do to make them like me?” aren’t swirling around in my head. 

I know that these thoughts are just that, thoughts in my head and most of the time they aren’t true. Everyone tells me all the time to relax, that’s it’s okay but it’s not that easy. I can’t just turn off the thoughts in my head.

So, I’m sorry if sometimes I seem irritated. It’s not because I don’t like you. It’s because I’m anxious, I want to run away to my safe place as fast as I can. I’m sorry if I’m ever mean because of my anxiousness, it’s not who I want to be. Some days I’m okay with hiding it but other times I can’t and I get irritated at everything. 

Trust me, I feel so bad about it at the end of the day. I go over what I did that day and I feel so bad because I wasn’t able to keep it together. 

So the next time you see a friend or a family member with anxiety getting irritated or  anxious, please don’t judge them. Instead, offer kind words tell them it’s gonna be okay. Give them a hug if they’re okay with it. 

Hopefully, this has helped you to understand someone with anxiety a little bit better.

Diapers Review

For all of you mothers and fathers out there you’ll understand what I mean when I say that one day you’re going to get very acquainted with diapers. When the arrival of your baby finally comes, you’re going to have to learn to change his or her diaper whether you like it or not! It’s going to be a constant thing even if you use cloth diapers. Before you know it, you’ll be diaper changing pros!

So, which diaper is best for your baby? It really depends (no pun intended) on what you’re looking for in a diaper. Is it well fitting, absorbent, affordable? Everyone’s choice is going to be different, but here is a review of five brands.

5. Pampers Swaddlers

These diapers I received as a gift for my baby shower and I still have them in my baby’s room. The only really good thing is the wetness indicator. It has this awful netting that sticks to my baby and I really don’t like it. The material is also very paper-like and not very absorbent. 

4. Huggies Snug and Dry 

 Huggies is one of my prefferred brands, but this particular kind is not my favorite. The good thing about this diaper is that it has an elastic band that contours to your baby, but it doesn’t have that extra fabric around the waist. Second, it has decent absorbency but it’s not good for overnight. Finally price wise, you can buy 132 count for $22.97 which is not too terrible.

3. Luvs 

At first, I didn’t really think I would like this diaper and I only bought it because I could not find anything else. It turned out to be a better choice than I thought. For starters, it has the extra fabric that goes around the baby’s waist, but it does not have an elastic band. Second it is very absorbent and my baby did not have any overnight leaks. Finally, pricewise you can buy 140 count for $29.48 which is not a bad deal. As an added bonus it has a nice powdery smell to it, which is both positive and negative because it can irritate your baby’s delicate skin.

 

2. Huggies Little Snugglers Plus

Huggies Little Snugglers, and Huggies Little Snugglers Plus are basically the same exact thing. The only real difference is the Plus is said to be a better version of the regular Snugglers diaper.  The downfall to this brand is that it is hard to find in regular stores. A 174 pack is $37.49

1. Huggies Little Snugglers

I never thought I would say this but my all time favorite diaper is Huggies Little Snugglers for various reasons. For one, it has a little extra fabric that goes around the baby’s waist for better fit along with an elastic waist band. I really loathe the diapers that are cut in a straight rectangle shape an don’t contour to your baby. Second, the material is gentle, breathable and absorbent. It has a wetness indicator that turns blue when your baby is wet. As for price, you can find a 132 pack in size 2 for $26.95. An added plus is that it has the words “front” and “back” printed on the diaper so you know you’re putting the baby’s diaper on correctly. I never knew that I would have needed to be told which is the front and back of a diaper, but even now I sometimes put K’s diaper on backwards.

This is all just my personal experience and my personal opinion and you are free to like whichever diaper you like.

Foggy

Foggy, an accurate description for how I’ve been feeling. My brain has been clouded over by a thick fog that doesn’t allow any light to penetrante. My mind desperately searches for an escape, but the more I search the foggier it gets. Perhaps I’m trying too hard to run away. Instead, I embrace the fog and find relief in it. Eventually, the fog lifts, I gaze up and find that the light has been there all along. I’m finally free.

5 Months Old, 5 Meses!

Looking down at you, I stare in disbelief.  Could it be that it has already been 5 months since the first day I met you? 5 months since I gave birth to you, my beautiful little boy. 


Time has gone both fast and slow. Some days I want time to slow down so I can catch up with you, so I can appreciate every new thing you do, every new thing you discover. Other times I want time to speed up so you can learn to walk, learn to talk. Patience, I tell myself. One day I’ll miss all these moments, your dad’s and my excitement when you learn something new. “Siempre va aprender algo nuevo” “He will always learn something new”, my Mom tells me, but it’s not everyday that you’ll take your first step or speak your first word. It will be exciting when you learn something new at school, but these moments are special.

Our journey together has been amazing and I can’t wait to continue watching you grow.